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Sunday, 16 February 2020

Be Kind

So sad to read of what happens when it all becomes too much to live with. The viciousness of trolls and their supporters is sickening. For the past 4+ years, harrassment/stalking/trolling has been a fact of my life and though I try so hard not to let it, the injustice and nastiness do get to me. Online and in the real-world, me and even more sadly - nearly everyone who has anything to do with me - are targetted by one man and his handful of misguided followers.

Of course the route is to block and ensure you don't 'see' the output - but when it impacts friends, family, fellow campaigners, people I love and respect... then there is no way of NOT seeing the impacts. I know who I am, why I do what I do and still keep taking the next steps I choose and if it weren't for the inclusion of others in the attacks (4+ hate videos per week naming many etc) - I would keep on ignoring the man with the wrong information who is lost in a conspiracy he will never untangle as it's of his own daily-making... but the hurt and damage to people's hearts is too much and I have to keep pursuing some legal recourse.

Even on a practical level this is damaging; this past week alone a large caravan with my name and some slander in large letters was placed on a busy road in the area I live - as I'm trying to find work, this is so damaging as outsiders can't see the whole long, sordid story behind it all. A previous incident involved 27 painted signs of hatred and slander on lamposts up the same road. The legal route and police support are less than worthless (Lancashire Police, Lancashire Police and Crime Commissioner) but I'll keep trying.

To friends and fellow campaigners caught up in this ugliness that has attached to me, I'm sorry this continues so relentlessly.

#BeKind


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Saturday, 15 February 2020

Activism in & vs politics..


 

Activism takes place in many arenas - this political one though is amongst the most challenging. Our system of government is not dealing with the urgent issues we all face in the here and now and is stuck in a past that had different demands and ways of living - it's creaking like a rusted antique, no longer fit enough, functioning fully or willing to give at all... to address its own inadequacies and failings. 

There is no time to wait this government out - we face an environmental and climate emergency that aren't going away and it's going to take many of us applying pressure in all sorts of ways to force this government to act for the greater good - not bow to lobbyists and economics alone.

It is brilliant that all manifestos from all parties now carry their 'green credentials' but unless there had been a Green Party pushing the issue for the past 4 decades - it would have taken even longer. Politics isn't just about winning elections - it's about being willing as a Party to push unpopular issues into the light, even if they are ugly and not 'vote winning' - but simply because they are true and they matter and we need to be informed so we can act effectively.

So now we know.. we KNOW that #Green isn't just a hippy thing but an existence thing and that so many species have already become extinct that each day of inaction - is another loss. Yet despite those manifesto updates to make them seem green - it's the urgency that's missing in parliament and the lack of focus on solutions rather than the cost of them or the work-rounds that might cut some corners etc.

I didn't join the Green Party expecting to see electoral wins (though there should be), I joined because I wanted to work on the issues that matter above all else - because without a survivable climate, breathable air and drinkable water... jobs, economies, borders, identity, nationality etc - just won't matter anyway.

I choose to engage in politics because it's the thing that causes so much harm and could be used for so much good and I choose to be with Green Party of England and Wales because I trust the ethics at the heart of the party to keep being the wise, honest and persistent voice of reason when all about are failing.

Thanks to Blackpool & Fylde Green Party for this opportunity to share with my sister Julie Daniels.

*The Green New Deal - UK is something we'll be looking to get more involved with as a local party and nationally.

Sunday, 19 January 2020

Different Roads...



Looking into each others eyes for the answers seems to be the start of finding them – the intention and the seeking of truth and direction not from government but from others like us, who showed up. It is undeniably obvious too that even as those answers are found or at least the problems defined, those with the power to implement the urgently needed change, don’t. So we go on, gathering ourselves and at least being the change we want to see whilst desperately trying to make it happen.

Since the last event at the roadside of Preston New Road Rolling Roadside Protest on 4th December 2019, it has been an odd feeling of ‘loss’ for many of us who have been so regularly and relentlessly involved in this intense campaign at this location since 5th January 2017. It’s bloody brilliant that the site that kept trying to exist as a shale gas production site – has failed and gone the way of the sites in this area that went before it – nowhere

For those that lived the battle though – we lost our daily comradeship, our shared place and aims that brought us back up that hill time and again. Online too the once busy groups and message threads that buzzed throughout the day and night have calmed like a quietening kettle after it’s off the boil. Pressure gone yes ...but so have we.

I am relieved that I’d said yes months ago to visiting Frack Free North Somerset for their AGM on 14 January 2020 - Richard had asked if a few Nanas could come and even though a moratorium is in place right now – it only covers ‘fracking’ and not all the other unconventional energy extraction techniques just like it (and sometimes worse)… FFNS is at risk of acidisation and so they remain on alert.

Activism and particularly Nana-ing has taken me to so many amazing places in our country and this was one of them – others include the beautiful Herefordshire, the warmly welcoming Ireland where I felt like I was amongst ‘family’ and lots in between. Following the Nana meeting the other day to plan getting back to outreach work, I did feel some trepidation as it’s been a long three years at a roadside and being off it – still hasn’t settled with me. I feel in-transit like I’m looking for something to board for wherever/whatever is supposed to happen next.

I couldn’t have asked though for a better start to ‘next’ than the journey Miranda and I took south. I do love a good organiser (because I am such a poor one) and the preplanning on this was wonderful – Richard had it all sorted so there was that for starters – the knowledge that we wouldn’t have to do anything but what we’d come here to do: give a talk and take questions. It sounds clinical but is so far from that. The talking is about the way our lives are impacted and how we created ways to cope whilst challenging the industry that threatened us. And the questions were an opportunity to share and learn from our individual experiences of planning, policing, politics etc.

The meeting had XR and Green Party people as well as anti-fracking campaigners and so it was good company. There are many types of outreach we do – often at Festivals or gatherings in places where people aren’t already aware and those are very different and very much about raising subjects that are less known to people – meetings with other campaigners though are amongst like-minds and essential for keeping us connected.

The take-away for me after these types of meetings is the relief I feel knowing how many others are acting in whatever way they can to solve problems that seem so insurmountable… that we are not small and alone.

It’s the unity of purpose that’s seen this fight against fracking be the success it’s been – of course it was the election and the earthquake that brought the moratorium but it was the people in rooms, halls and cafes like the one in Somerset that caused the industry to be so delayed and tied up with planning objections and opposition - forcing them into ludicrous and very costly legal battles and PR campaigns to try to win us over with myths and promises that thankfully were pathetically poor… that brought them to near financial ruin and zero success.

After the moratorium I got quite upset when advised not to be joyous at the pause – that it wasn’t good enough because it wasn’t a ban and that it was politically motivated, that it didn’t cover anything other than the very specific ‘fracking’ process and only because the earthquake was felt… but this has been a near decade of a fight and the moratorium for England was a major thing - as it has been in Ireland, Scotland and Wales. So too was the acceptance by Conservative government that there might be cause to pause and look further into this; back at the start and for most of this time, Conservatives refused to even consider that there could be a negative in what they sold as a wonderfully positive vision for our energy future. Their version of perfection has natural cracks in it now and they cannot be made good again (much like the abandoned wells the frackers leave behind).

We have tools in 2020 that we didn’t have before. Council after council is declaring a ‘Climate Emergency’ and again… we could be cynical and say “oh but they won’t act on it” - maybe true right now but every planning application that threatens the environment can now be challenged on this basis – everything IS different! The fact that councils and even media now accept the climate emergency as a fact, is a massive positive too that wasn’t there at the start.

Fighting to save the planet from profit-driven destruction by the selfish who refuse to see further than their own lifetime needs – was never going to be a quick and easy thing… and that it’s a rewarding and sort-of successful thing can’t be seen from the outside or be apparent to those just arriving at realisation… but if you look back to the start of this and compare it to now – we have covered so much ground! From nearly 70% of the UK being up for fracking – there are moratoriums everywhere that have that on hold… from only the Green Party standing with us… we now have all except the Conservatives and even then… they are less confident and in the current climate… less able to convince anyone this is a fabulous idea.

What happens next? Well for the room in North Somerset it is continued vigilance even in this in-between time because of what’s proposed here (acidisation like Yorkshire) and keeping the links with other groups alive because we are all going to go on needing each other until we get this right. Supporting actions, travelling to be with each other and sharing online are still vital and for anti-frackers, it maybe needs to be a lot more about looking to the other issues that are also urgently in need of people like us – other areas at risk from industries that threaten the health and well-being of the community and threaten the environment.

I returned to the south again on Saturday to Bristol this time and networked with a multitude of groups including those defending and fighting for the rights of migrants, detainees, homeless people and mental health care as well as environmental groups. I was in great company too with fellow Nana Louise and Protest Justice campaigner Carol; the people in the room told stories that were heart breaking but those who told them – inspirational. It’s a messy world in all its places and so many aspects of it need help – need us to go on being that change. Maybe we need to reach out across our issues and see who (just like us) needs support for their work… and how we can link ourselves together to trace all this mess back to the source and focus our immense energy on that.
Thanks to all who made this week a great first step in a direction still un-named

Leftover thoughts:
-The Mendips wakes you super early with the most incredible range of beautiful bird song
-Hot water bottles! I’d forgotten how comforting they are – particularly when made by someone who cares you’re warm enough (thank you Nicky xxx)
-The kindness and goodness of people is far more widespread than we sometimes think particularly having been in ‘warrior mode’ for a while
-Chatting with Richard on the porch was a highlight
-I think I like cider – but that may be a bad thing lol!
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Ps… (as if I haven't already rambled on enough!)
This trip South came the day after our so beloved cat Mister Tiddles was put to sleep and I think I was glad of a reason to get above the grief – I walked into Richard & Nicky’s home and their cat greeted me with a deliberate and familiar head butt and let me give him all the love I needed to soothe the pain a bit… then we got to the lovely venue Loves Cafe and their dog was upstairs looking down and within minutes arrived at my side to pick up where the cat had left off… I swear they both sensed I needed to love them because they felt like a way to connect with the one I’d just lost. I remember reading somewhere once that all cats are just aspects of a one cat… I’ll take that idea.

Tuesday, 31 December 2019

2020 Priorities


Reading hashtags like #NewYearChallenge & #challenge2020 on Twitter and posts here from individuals seeking greater fame/love/weight-loss etc in 2020 and wondering how any can put 'self' ahead of life on this planet? I don't want to be depressing when others rejoice but ffs... it's the planet that needs the attention - urgently.

Fireworks in blazing Australia feel like such a final straw for me and I suppose I just despair for how little is done, how little will be done and how dark the future will be because of this. It has been lovely to spend time with family and extended family over xmas and get lost for a tiny bit in the other way of living - but I feel desperately useless in this state of 'just being' and not acting to stop the lunacy of the fossil fuel industry and shite, corrupted governments. Like a passenger in a car headed for the cliff edge discussing which radio station to put on.

And while fires burn out of control in Australia - corporate interests continue to set the Amazon ablaze - what a fucked-up world we live in. Death toll of humans in Australia increased to 12 since this article went out just 17 hours ago - loss of koalas, kangaroos, birds and other beautiful creatures far far worse:

IS THIS NORMAL FOR AUSTRALIA?
[The NSW Rural Fire Service says the scale of what has burned in that state is unprecedented at this point of the fire season. By Monday, 3.41 million hectares had burned. “To put it in perspective, in the past few years we have had a total area burned for the whole season of about 280,000 hectares,” RFS spokeswoman Angela Burford said.

The fires have already killed at least 10 people, torched more than 11.3 million acres, and destroyed more than 900 homes since September. The blazes made breathing the air in Sydney as bad as smoking 37 cigarettes and have killed 480 million animals, environmental officials said, including nearly one-third of the koalas in one of Australia’s most populated koala habitats in an area 240 miles north of Sydney.

Australia’s national government has been slower to respond to the risks posed by extreme heat, bush fires, and climate change. Australian Prime Minister Scott Morrison apologized this month for taking a vacation to Hawaii during the recent heatwave and bushfires. However, he brushed off calls to curb Australia’s reliance on coal.

“I am not going to write off the jobs of thousands of Australians by walking away from traditional industries,” he told Australia’s Channel Seven.]













 




So... Happy New Year - sorry this is not a post to bring joy... I just don't feel like there's much time left for it

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*Planning, plotting and preparing to get on with fighting back... mood will improve xxx

ps... Lewis (in the image) died.

Friday, 13 December 2019

Too honourable?

We're worn down, drained and fed up of politics that is so polarised and aggressive. Watching the election results was like being drained of hope one seat at a time - the fear rising for the climate, for the vulnerable, for unity and for the future of pretty much everything here. Reading many shocked responses and it feels a bit like it did when we had the referendum result... only worse
Being honourable even if it does mean cutting off our nose to spite our faces?

There is a thread of this outcome though that I do understand and that's the way this election seemed to rest strongly on 'honouring' the referendum result. And that's what Boris Johnson and the Conservatives tapped into. It was like this was a choice between one LEAVE party or any one of the 5 or so others that were either Remain or unclear. Dividing Remain or undecided voters into many pieces but keeping the Leave vote solidly in the Conservative camp. And in a voting system like we have (First Past the Post) - the outcome is only ever a binary choice and the two-horses in this race were Conservatives & everyone else.

The referendum didn't just split us into remain or leave, it split us over this 3 years into - 'honour or don't honour' the result too. It's never sat right I suppose that we ignore, disregard or re-run a vote - rather than 'honouring' it... even though we see the lies we were sold and all that has been exposed about #Brexit - it will always feel wrong to go against a promise of democratic outcome being honoured and I think that was key for many even in the remain camp.

There were lots of other factors too of course - much manipulated by the old media that stoked division and hatred and made this about the personalities rather than the policies. The media also set the tone of aggression throughout and this has been an ugly and bitter election where 'debate' was really just shouting matches interspersed with interuption by angry hosts and angry candidates.
We wake today deeply divided still and the road ahead is not only unclear, it's clearly littered with trips,mines and hurdles to overcome. We'll be leaving Europe and instead be 'one nation' led by Conservatives... some rejoice but very very many see this as the worst of all worst case scenarios.
So even more divided and polarised than ever. It's all extremes and no sense of middle-ground.
The climate looks most vulnerable in this outcome and along with the NHS (and many species) is not only on the 'at-risk' list - but due to the urgency of their plight, in need of immediate attention I fear they just won't get.

I have no idea where to put my thoughts today and it all feels flat and hopeless with deeper depths of despair coming up.

We all tried to get what we thought was best and needed from our personal and individual perspectives... but in a world where our 'perspectives' are manipulated and where the most money can buy the most manipulation, our 'perspectives' are skewed. Add to this the voting system stuck in a past that just doesn't reflect the diversity we are today - and here we are.

I'm trying to think of a "BUT... " followed by something hopeful or warm or kind or soothing... but I can't.

Instead I go with the hope that we rein in our anger at this and not allow it to keep flooding through our relationships and interactions. We will need to organise and will need to heal divisions if we're to have light at the end of any tunnels.

Now is indeed (for very many) the winter of our discontent.

Tuesday, 10 December 2019

2 days till #GE2019

Just 2 days to go and still so many wondering who the hell to vote for. Transparency, clarity and certainty are out the window as the news offers nothing but an unending deluge of incompetence, lies, manipulation and BS served up in slanging matches that just add to the ugliness of it all.

The greatest fear for many - is another 5 years of dangerous government under the Conservatives (makes me shudder). The country and the planet are taking a battering and have been throughout their term in office - if it's broken, the Conservatives either broke or neglected it - so all their promises to make it better just sound like the lies they clearly are. Look at just about every aspect of our lives - and it's plain and obvious the government has failed and that government for the past 10 years has been Conservative.

BUT this doesn't mean that our votes HAVE to be for the only other party with a chance of coming 1st! It sounds like it should be true but it bloody well isn't. We're hounded and herded by those in the two parties supporting the 2-party system, into thinking "MUST VOTE RED to stop blue!" But that's only true in in marginal seats (so few) - the rest of us will not be able to change the current Party representing us because of the way our voting system (First Past the Post) operates.

[A general election is a nationwide ballot, but in reality the UK’s first-past-the post system means the outcome is decided in a few dozen swing seats which change hands.]

TACTICAL voting WILL REALLY MATTER hugely - but only in a small number of places:
Here are the top target seats for the main parties in 2019:

Conservatives:
Perth and North Perthshire (SNP, majority of 21 in 2017)
Kensington (Labour, 30)
Dudley North (Labour, 22)
Newcastle-under-Lyme (Labour, 30)
Crewe and Nantwich (Labour, 48).

Labour:
Southampton Itchen (Con, 31)
Glasgow South West (SNP, 60)
Glasgow East (SNP, 75)
Arfon (Plaid Cymru, 92)
Airdrie and Shotts (SNP, 195).

Scottish National Party:
Stirling (Con, 148)
Glasgow North East (Lab, 242)
Kirkcaldy and Cowdenbeath (Lab, 259)
Rutherglen and Hamilton West (Lab, 265)
Midlothian (Lab 885)

Liberal Democrats:
Fife North East (SNP, 2)
Richmond Park (Con, 45)
Ceredigion (Plaid Cymru, 104)
St Ives (Con, 312)
Sheffield Hallam (Lab, 2,125)

*Do check if your area is a marginal:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_target_seats_in_the_2019_United_Kingdom_general_election

For the rest of us - vote to change things by changing how you vote! Instead of voting between just 2 parties - venture out, it won't change the outcome but IT WILL CHANGE the value of your vote... (hopefully) you will deny the Conservatives your vote and increase the support for another party and this WILL WEAKEN those safe seats that have us locked into an undemocratic process.

Your vote away from the 2-party system will also weaken the 2-party stranglehold on truly representative parliament. If you agree that a 2-party system just doesn't fit a nation as diverse as ours, then *don't vote for the 2-parties that refuse to change it (*unless you're marginal then that's a different set of criteria).

Also, if the result is that neither red nor blue have an overall majority - they will have to co-operate with smaller parties to get things done and the more support those parties are seen to have, the more power (and ideas) shift.

It's shit that this is the way it is but as I'm not in a marginal - the choice is easier and with it, I'll at least know I voted with my personal truth. x

Wednesday, 4 December 2019

PNR: 5 Jan 2017 ~ 4 Dec 2019

"Everyone wanted to go but no-one wanted to leave"

..someone said this at the end of today's final event at Preston New Road Rolling Roadside Protest and it was so true and for me, unexpectedly emotional. We were standing like guests reluctant to let the night be over, hoping for one more dance or to at least not be the first to break the spell that would take us to a different place – in so many ways.



I hadn't considered at all how today would feel - it's the 121st time we've gathered to Call for Calm on a Wednesday and I think I just got on with it in the same way I always do, not considering the huge significance.

Then there were sad goodbyes and the realisation that like when you leave school, there'd be no going back, no reliving or experiencing life in the same way ever again - even if we maintain our connections... there will only ever be one 'PNR: 5th Jan 2017 - 4th Dec 2019'.

I suppose because the 'Nanas' have been together since 2014 and had spent nearly 3 years campaigning in all sorts of places across the country - I hadn’t known the utter wrench it would be to go from somewhere you’ve been located in for so long; that having spent 3 full years in one place, with and as one community... becoming almost literally (certainly for me) one family. This was very different site & camp closure.

Barton Moss, Balcombe, Upton, Horse Hill and all the rest - have their places and people and memories too but I think it's that PNR demanded so much for so very long and has been so very pivotal to the story of fracking in the UK - that made it matter so deep down. Nothing was without impact - every day unpredictable and so much sent to challenge us. But then there was the response...

So many who came to lift our moods, raise our spirits and help us sustain this long campaign. Moral has been everything and Morris Dancing, one-man-bands, dance teachers, choirs, Tibetan Monks, priests and vicars, authors, academics, entertainers, bands, singers, poets drummers, percussionists, harpists even just groups and individuals that spared what time they could to make visits. We’ve been a core group of ‘regular faces’ supported by frequent visitors, regular guests and mass gatherings when we called them and we only called them with care – to get 1000 people up that hill was a stunning thing or to party 24 hours at the gates – were surges that shot energy through our veins for months to come.

So back to the beginning - "Everyone wanted to go but no-one wanted to leave"

Of course we’ll never dance this way again but I will wear us always in the fabric of me that was enhanced by all who shared the space and time that has been PNR. I leave richer and find the positive in the way I can’t wait to tackle the world as the enhanced ‘me’ that is made up of all of us – every moment that re-sculpted my edges, shaped me better and made me feel – so very real.

It’s been a heck of a thing.

Love really did win

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